My friend

Dear Rain

I was crying when I typed this words for you. I don’t why, but all those tears come out from my eyes. I couldn’t help it. It’s all because of someone. Yeah, my friend just called me. She is not only my best friend but also a sister for me. She always helps me for everything that I need because in her mind, I am still a spoiled little girl. I am always become the victim of her jokes. However sometimes I get angry because of it but I know that’s the sign that she’s really cared about me. Although she’s little bit moody sometimes, keep her problem for herself, suddenly become a mute woman, it is all because she doesn’t want to become a burden for me. I am glad to have her. Until few weeks ago, we had a big cold war

Let me tell you the detail.

We did two psychology tests together for two big companies. Unluckily, she was the only one who went on to the next level. Felt down, off course. But it was not a big crisis for me. As I know Allah has determined something bigger and better for me. ^_^ V Surprisingly, it made her feel uncomfortable. She stayed away from me. She even stopped talking to me. Hiks...one night she sent me sms. She asked me to return all her stuffs that were at my home. Argh...I didn’t know why I was so angry. As a result, I sent rude words to her. You are so swallow, that was one of some sentences that I wrote. Since that day, we never talked. We avoided seeing each other. It was really hard and hurt me. I knew I didn’t have a fancy for this. But something closed my mind. Few days later, I heard that she went to Surabaya. I didn’t even say anything before she left.

Few days’ even weeks without her made everything different. I miss her so.

Today, just now, she called me. Gosh...I couldn’t help it. My heart beat fast. I was crying. We didn’t say any sorry. The chitchat ran like there’s nothing happen. She told me a lot of thing.

7th EMO Gathering

Dear Ally,

As you asked me before, i'm going to give you my side story about this gathering and about the mini gathering too :)

First, the 7th gathering that held on Dec 22, 2007.
I wake up around 6:00 (too lazy to wake up early), taking a bath, make breakfast and eat (instant noodle with eggs), and time showing 6:55. So i call the travel agent and ask if i can get more time (injury time? hahaha). Knowing that i can't get it, they offer me to move to the next shuttle (8am). So, here i am, in the shuttle at 8am, listening to music that played from mp3 player, and continue reading Anansi Boys.
After a while, i feel sleepy so i close the book and sleep. That time you call me but i hear it not. :D Around 10:30 i arrived at the travel agent office in kelapa gading, waiting for taxi, and continue reading Anansi Boys, and get an sms from smartie, saying: Smartie calling for raina. Where on the earth are you now.
Haha, so i inform her that i've arrived in kelapa gading and sliding directly to Shiki's house. After a few chitchat with the taxi driver, i arrived at Shiki's house, finding Cammo and Greendoplet are packaging gift from elex for us ^___^b
A bit chitchat then Tikyut and friends are coming (still waiting for Smartie and the rest). That time, we start playing twister twice (me and shiki aren't joining the game), play uno card (i'm the winner yahoo!), and play uno stack (tikyut lost). When smartie and the rest arrived, we gather around, make a circle (a big one) and start an introduction session). That time you call and get big and noisy HELLO from everybody there. :D
After a bit chitchat there, the big group is soon break into two. First, the large one, consist of tikyut and friends, newbies, cammo, etc are hanging around shikis's front room while shiki, smartie, laa laa, meow, and me are playing in shiki's bedroom ^___^v
Lunch lunch lunch! ran chan cook for us. He cook salad and pasta. Taste nice. And shiki's mom cook us meatballs! After fill my stomach with lots of foods, i feel so full so i kick my body to shiki's bed, lay down there for a while while the other still have fun here and there.
Oh hey, i forgot to mention our Oma, Cippy! She cames very late at noon because of Cathy West. Hearing the story from smartie (let smartie or cippy herself told you about this), i get a bit irritated with this cathy girl. So when she come into shiki's bedroom, i ask her shortly: why you came so late like this?
With a bit shamefull smile, she answer: Err, ketiduran (what's the english word for this? well, wake up late, that's the point). And i move my head a bit lower and shake it right to left slowly without any word come from my mouth and with a pale illfill smile on my face as a respon to her answer. Hope it can be a lesson for her :P
Well, the reason i stay in shiki's bedroom and not gather with those guys outside is... because i fell not comfortable around them. Too much fun isn't good for an old lady? Lolz it's not that. Just... i feel more fun and relax and at home in shiki's bedroom, among those senior member that i've known pretty well :D
Most of them start to go to elex showroom while smartie, meow, cippy and me still at shiki's house. Shiki and ran chan drive us to find taxi, then we drop smartie and meow at elex showroom, while me and cippy continue our journey to cippy's house.
For the first time, at last! i try busway! Yippie! hihihihi..... And cippy treat me greenbean porridge (green bean as kacang hijau, not buncis. correct me if i'm wrong). Planning to finish reading Anansi tonight but after receiving a phone from friend, i'm too lazy to open my eyes so i continue to sleep until morning :D

Mini gathering at Taman Anggrek, Dec 23, 2007
Arriving at TA at 11:05, we directly go to gramedia and hunting for books. I found 3 books there, celestine propechy (book one from a trilogy by james redfield), peebe (a bookstory for children, for my niece), and skip beat vol10.
I haven't collect skip beat, any of them. But suddenly cammo ask me if i want to collect them. He already bring skip beat 1-8 (unless no.7) and i only need to find the rest by myself. Hmm... thinking this month is my lucky month, i say yes and buy his skip beat and buy skip beat no.10 at gramedia too.
Queueing at the cinema, we have a nice chitchat, not like yesterday, though akucu bring her friend that, again... like Seiren, tikyut's friend. T_T After they buy the ticket, we go to popeyes, having lunch together. And then Ephi Ong, today's star has arrived! You know what, she forget about today thou she told me previously that she already put today in her schedule T_T
She bring me a gift, a clear mini bag that i might use as CD bag ^___^v Thanks ephi :)
And imel come too, directly from the church. She brought me mangascans in a cd while yesterday i already get a song cd and several pics from shiki ^___^v
Waiting for several of us that watching cinema, me, shiki, ran chan, hime chan, cippy, and imel walk around TA and guess what i find there?! Nodame cantabile no.8 and skip beat no.7 and no.9, exactly as i need! Woohooo, i've told you this is my lucky month. Hehehe...
After another fun and happy chitchat there at TA, we part, and leave to cippy house again.
This time i make sure i read Anansi a bit and having chitchat with cippy until 30 minutes before midnight.

Sleeping that late in exhausted condition, makes us lazy to wake up early. Yet, my friend calls me at 6:30, shouts: wake up, wake up, it's morning already!
Grrrr.... i still sleepy, i said. But i continue talk to him and facing Anansi Boys and talk to cippy at the same time ;)
After a while, my friend said: Go on, sleep again, continue your sleep. So, there i am, sleep again until hmm... 10:30 *blushing*
Going downstairs, having breakfast, taking a bath, then leaving to cyber cafe, writing this, and in ten minutes, we'll off to hunt more books. Don't ask me where, ask cippy ^___^;
So.... see you next time :)

your beloved partner,
-raina-

The Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head

...........

But there's one thing I know
The blues they send to meet me won't defeat me
It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Cryin's not for me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothin's worryin' me

Do you know that song Rain? It’s a nice song however the beat makes you want to take a pillow and sleep. Hihihi...I heard it last year at my previous office. I have no idea what the singer try to tell us but I like singing and playing it on my winamp.

I am not a person who can directly get the meaning of a song without looking at the lyric especially the song with difficult words except the easy listening one. I am a visual learner not audio one. How about you?

When I wrote these words, the rain fell heavily whereas I had appointment with my fellow. Besides I have a lot of thing to do. I know I couldn’t blame the weather. Some people will tell to being the umbrella. Umbrella, FYI, I never brings it anymore since none of them can stay longer. It is always broken. Can’t they make it a better one? The one, which can fight back the wind blow strongly. Or probably, that’s their strategy to rise up their income. They make umbrella only for few months or weeks. So we will buy theirs over and over again. Hihi...

However I hate if I couldn’t go when it rains hard but it is nice to see them falling. It brings a peaceful feeling. I remembered when I was in senior high school; all the precedent memories came back in once second when all the trees were wet. Some of them guided me to gloom yet showed strength. My friends used to mock me when they knew about this. But who cares. I enjoy all moment when all the ground is soaking

Back to the lyric, Yeah...there's nothing that I Have to worry about. I am sure the time will come. I just have to wait patiently and absolutely keep trying. Wish me luck ^_^V

Cavity

Hi there...
How’s your day? I hope everything is fine

Here I am again.How many times do you brush your teeth? Every time you take a bath or after having meals? Do you brush it before you go to bed? Me myself do it. ^_^V

I have a friend who always brings her toothbrush everywhere she goes. If she stays at my home, she never forgets to clean them before turning off the light. She must have the strong one. Shockingly, previous week she sent me sms and called off our plans because of her dental cavity. She whined about it. I know it’s really hurt.

The remaining question is, how come a person who always brushes her teeth regularly has a cavity? Is something wrong with her toothpaste? Or is it because she consumes too many candies and chocolates. How come a woman like her still got a cavity? I though it’s only for children. Please tell me Rain. What is the caused of cavity?

I am not afraid of cavity but I am not sure I can deal with the pain. I still remembered when I was in elementary school there was a big hole in my tooth. It would make my tears burst out. In one second after I chewed my food, it would send an agony. Not long after that, there was a scream of little (not rich) poor girl. No body helped me. No one tried to ease the pain. I was the only one who could feel it. Fuh...I hope it won’t happen to us.

Keep your teeth clean !!!

Watashi no Yume

Dear rain

What do you think about dream? Dream that I wrote here is something that you see in black and white color when you are asleep. A series of images, event and feeling that still reminds when your alarm is ringing. Scientist said that thousand dreams could happen in one night. But we never can count it. So how do they know there are thousand? Hihihi

Some people believe directly open a book that reveals its meaning. I think they are silly enough. For me dream is just the reflection of what you thought, it does not have a correlation with what you will get in the future.
How about you Rain? Do you believe in dream? Don’t tell me that you have a pile a book about dream? :P

However I don’t believe in dream, I always try to capture them on my notebook. My mind says it would be nice to read all those images. I always think they will be a good stock of idea to write a non-fiction story. Hehehehe...you can call me bizarre. Unluckily, I seldom bear them in my mind. And if I remember it, my hand is reluctant to take a pen and note down. So there are a lot of empty page.

But this morning, I woke up with something different. It’s all because a vivid dreams that happened last night. All the characters are people from my past. He was my chairman when I was in second and third grade, junior high school. He was the boy that I denied even when he had not told me about his feeling. Yeah...He tried to approach me. I kept away from him. He was kind and cute. Some girls in my school adored him. But I didn’t know what exactly happened to me. Probably I was too scared. Too scared to admit that I thought about him too. I just realized it few years later after graduated and moved to another town. Ugh...

Lets go back to my dream. The setting was in a school and both of us joined a same extracurricular. He asked me why I turned him down. I had no choice but told him everything. I was relieved. At least he knew the entire thing that I concealed. I could see he was smile. Unfortunately, suddenly his twin came, took my hand and asked me to stay away from the chairman. It seemed his twin was my boyfriend. Arghh...

Hihihi...I can’t stop laughing when I remember it. It makes me wonders how come something from the past can draw closer. Hmmm. I am sure it’s just like another ordinary dream. At least I have something to write on that silly book.
Another questions that come up, how is he? What does he do? Where is he now?
Hihihi...lets stop it.

Have a great day rain.

Another Song That Melts Me

The book of love is long and boring
No one can lift the damn thing
It's full of charts and facts and figures, and instructions for dancing
But I
I love it when you read to me
And you
You can read me anything
The book of love has music in it
In fact that's where music comes from
Some of it's just transcendental
Some of it's just really dumb
But I
I love it when you sing to me
And you
You can sing me anything
The book of love is long and boring
And written very long ago
It's full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes
And things we're all too young to know
But I
I love it when you give me things
And you
You ought to give me wedding rings
And I
I love it when you give me things
And you
You ought to give me wedding rings
And I
I love it when you give me things
And you
You ought to give me wedding rings
You ought to give me wedding rings

It’s another song that melts me.
Hope some one will sing it for me. hihihi
Day dreaming

my small-almost messy- house

Dear Raina who just had her hair cut.

It’s been a month since my sister left me alone. Probably I have told you that she moved to another town. It is about 12 hours from Makassar. She got a new job. It means I am alone. All the responsible about the house belong to me, from cleaning it, sweeping and mopping the floor, paying the bill, feeding my crazy-greedy cats, watering the flowers, etc (Just name it)

I thought it was easy. But I was wrong. I need an extra energy to help me to arrange those books and newspaper, which can be found everywhere, to make sure that there is not any dust on the table, to wash those dirty clothes (my washing machine is broken...I really want to bring them all to laundry). Garbage, I have to wait the yellow truck to throw them. Ups...I start complaining, don’t I?

I have tried to handle everything but it is not easy. I said to my sister and my mom that I would be fine. They don’t have to worry. It’s a lie. Sometimes I can’t help it. Please send someone to help me. One maid is enough. Hihihi...Unfortunately, my mom won’t approve my proposal.

My house is not big, but it suddenly becomes a large field when I hold a broom. There is not any clue why it happens. Do you think there is a witch who swings her wand to me? Perhaps. hehehe

I hope you will never face a problem like me. Hmm. Get to go. Those mad cats are shouting. I am sure the dragons in their stomach are scratching each other.

The Second Part (or the third one? XD)

Dear Ally,

I forgot to tell you this part.
That friend of mine, he's in 'broken heart' condition since his love decided to accept other man's proposal.
He tried to make his love change her decision but still, his love stand still. Moreover (i just knew it today from my friend), his love has been tried to matchmaking him and me since long ago. ?

She said, the reason is... because me and my friend suits well. (?.o);
Hope her decision to accept other man's proposal wasn't because of this. If yes, i'd feel very sorry about it since me, myself, has no intention to be more than friend with my friend. (i've told you the reason before)

i'll add more if there's anything new :)

-rain-

it's all about me

Dear Rain

I am so sorry I didn’t write for couple of months. I am not busy at all. There were not any good words to reveal all my thoughts. But then I realize I am the one who offered you to make this blog. I must responsible. Here we go

Let me count it again. Hmmm.It is almost 7 months since I resigned. There were a lot of application letters that I sent. Some of them tried to hire me. I almost move to Jakarta but then something changes it. There was another test from big company. My mom forced me to stay and leave the job. She thought that it was easy to pass the test. From the first time I was not sure. Bang! On 19 November, my name wasn’t on the list. There were not any tears but inside my heart I felt so down. Lucky me, there was some great books in my hands. It did not take a long time to recover. I believe Allah has determined something else for me. Something that is better. Allah loves me and probably that big company is not on my book. Or probably not this year but one, two, three even five years later. Or that is not for me at all. I should have not been so down because this small stuff. Just like an old proverbs, there are a lot of ways to go to Rome. I get my own way.

But lets see what the real problem is. I am still a freelancer, have no office to go to, no fixed salary, my mom is still worry about me because she still pays the bill, and inside my mind I admit there is a little worry when someone ask about my job. But must these things ruin my life? Hell no!!! Life is so short. Just because I am not an employee, it does not mean my life is over, doesn’t it? Bring you Pom-pom rain, please. Tell me that everything that I wrote above is not only a shit.

It is so nice to write all those words. Thanks for reading it, Rain. Wait for another one.

A Story I Promised You, Girls

Hmm... where should i start?

Well, there's this guy who getting close to me recently. He's ... well, not to say he's handsome and so on and so on but... i'd just want to say, he's a guy who has manner. And he's a kind guy.

We hang out together, several times. Just as friends. Not that i want to have relationship with him but... i just feel happy and fun being with him. That's all :)

In fact, i do really hope if this is just 'like as to friends' feeling, not a crush or something more than that. The reason... well, there're several reasons here.

First, he's in love with another girl. Second, his religion is different to mine (this is important). Third, i just don't want to break our friendship :P

Hehe... i think that's all i can share to you, girls. If you have questions or need more details, you know where to contact me ;)

love and hugs,
-rain-